One of my favorite authors, Laurell K Hamilton does this thing where she makes note of the first bird that she sees after the new year. She takes it as a message regarding the things she needs to look at or work on for the year. This year I decided to try it. Well the only bird I have seen, and I have seen several, has been the hawk. That's it. So I decided to look up the spiritual meaning of a hawk. "Specifically, the hawk beckons us to hone our focus on the areas that are out of balance in our lives. Recognition is the first step to solution." This fits in a scary way. I have felt very out of balance for ages now. I guess since I haven't seen even one other bird in over 4 days, it's time to take the hint. Focus on coming back into balance. Not sure what this is going to mean, but I'll be meditating on it. I have a feeling it will mean getting back to the core, finding that thing that keeps me sane.
(as I type this, I finally saw another bird LMAO! Guess Deity figured I got the message, and wanted to add to it. It was a BIG crow, or possibly a raven. The meanings, yup you guessed it Crow: Justice, change, creativity, spiritual strength, energy, community sharing, and balance. Raven: Introspection, courage, self-knowledge. Ok I get it! Uncle!!)
Tuesday, January 04, 2011
Friday, November 12, 2010
I'm Old
Two nights in a row out at work functions, and I just want to drop! Not like I got home at 2 am either time! Both nights I was home and in bed by midnight. But DAMN am I tired today! I'm thinking it has more to do with having to be on and entertaining the whole time for the clients. Whatever the reason, I am seriously looking forward to quiet girl time this weekend with Moosh and Chey! LMAO! It just hit me Moosh and Chey....Moose and Squirrel...LMAO!! ok I really am tired!
Thursday, May 06, 2010
And the worst mom of the year award goes to...
ME!!! I just got a VERY tearful call from my 13 yr old from the school's phone. See East Hampton had a 2 hour delay this morning because of some teacher thing. Well I go on to facebook a little after 11 and S has updated his page. Hmmm his phone is blocked during school hours so how did he do that? So I text him and go off, accusing him of skipping and saying I'm sending someone to check up on him.
Poor guy was really at lunch and his lunatic mother is texting him like a crazy person. Yup pretty sure this was my first entry into the running for mayor of crazy town! Poor kid!
Poor guy was really at lunch and his lunatic mother is texting him like a crazy person. Yup pretty sure this was my first entry into the running for mayor of crazy town! Poor kid!
Monday, April 05, 2010
Monday, March 22, 2010
You know you're a geek when...
Have the "bike" bug again. Thinking that may be my big purchase this year with the fun car coming next year when Bessie is paid off.
So went looking at motorcycles on Saturday with Tim. I find this really nice one with saddlebags and my first thought...seriously folks this is sad...is "Oooo my laptop will fit in there!" Internal filter is off because, frankly it's Tim and he's heard it all anyway. So this thought flies out of my mouth at the same moment. He looks at me, shakes his head and walks away. I, of course follow. "But you see this means I don't have to buy a backpack to ride it to work over the summer!" More head shaking and walking. Shortly followed by a giggle and "You make me smile. You're such a geek"
sigh. Hello my name is Ellen and I'm a geek.
So went looking at motorcycles on Saturday with Tim. I find this really nice one with saddlebags and my first thought...seriously folks this is sad...is "Oooo my laptop will fit in there!" Internal filter is off because, frankly it's Tim and he's heard it all anyway. So this thought flies out of my mouth at the same moment. He looks at me, shakes his head and walks away. I, of course follow. "But you see this means I don't have to buy a backpack to ride it to work over the summer!" More head shaking and walking. Shortly followed by a giggle and "You make me smile. You're such a geek"
sigh. Hello my name is Ellen and I'm a geek.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
The holiday delema
I'm having a rough time this year. I am really excited that Laura and Mom will both be home for Christmas for the first time in 6 years. But it is making me realize all the things I haven't done with Steven over the years.
Christmas is my least favorite holiday. Partly because I haven't figured out how to celebrate it yet. Growing up it was easy. Christmas eve celebration at Grand Ma Lester's and church. Christmas day was family time for the morning then we spent the rest of the day here with Grandma and Grandpa Palm. It was beautiful, fun and fantastic.
Over the last few years, I've found myself becoming more and more Grinch like. Last year, I didn't really decorate at all and I put the little mini artificial tree up on Christmas Eve night so it would be there for the kids in the morning.
Even this year, there's nothing done. No tree yet, no decorations. Nothing. And I'm stressed about it. Last night I completely planned to get stuff done once homework was over. Did I? Nope fell asleep for 2 hours. Today, I pick Laura up at Midnight in Boston. Plus I'm supposed to have contractors here working on siding and windows. Not confident I will get out to do what I need to. And tomorrow I have to work as well (I have 1 client who is open, so I have to be on and available). And T doesn't help. He bought himself a new video game, so nothing has gotten done the last few days, even when I've said something. And don't even get me started on shopping. People are such asses at this time. WTF! I really need to figure this out so I don't ruin things for everyone else any more.
Christmas is my least favorite holiday. Partly because I haven't figured out how to celebrate it yet. Growing up it was easy. Christmas eve celebration at Grand Ma Lester's and church. Christmas day was family time for the morning then we spent the rest of the day here with Grandma and Grandpa Palm. It was beautiful, fun and fantastic.
Over the last few years, I've found myself becoming more and more Grinch like. Last year, I didn't really decorate at all and I put the little mini artificial tree up on Christmas Eve night so it would be there for the kids in the morning.
Even this year, there's nothing done. No tree yet, no decorations. Nothing. And I'm stressed about it. Last night I completely planned to get stuff done once homework was over. Did I? Nope fell asleep for 2 hours. Today, I pick Laura up at Midnight in Boston. Plus I'm supposed to have contractors here working on siding and windows. Not confident I will get out to do what I need to. And tomorrow I have to work as well (I have 1 client who is open, so I have to be on and available). And T doesn't help. He bought himself a new video game, so nothing has gotten done the last few days, even when I've said something. And don't even get me started on shopping. People are such asses at this time. WTF! I really need to figure this out so I don't ruin things for everyone else any more.
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